|Oct. 24th, 2007 06:38 pm Matt|
Okay, the Rave is freaking out now. My heart is going to explode out of my chest, my throat is all tight, and I’m having the apocalyptic SPAZ ATTACK!!!!
I need to talk to my boyfriend. He tried to call me but my music was up so loud I didn’t hear the phone until it was too late. I should’ve called him back, especially since I need to talk to him. BUT! But I cannot, repeat NOT, talk to him on the phone. I am too nervous, scared, and spazzy to talk to him on the phone. I will get flustered, I will cry, then he’ll be mad and I’ll feel like a total witch, then the line of communication is broken, I’ll be in trouble, and I’ll probably want to damage myself in some way. So, no phone.
I need him to email me. I am so much better at expressing myself and communicating in writing. That’s why I’m a writer, not a public speaker. I already emailed him. He hasn’t emailed me back.
He hates me. =(
I think I’m going to cry.
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